I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in an extended while, I don't feel alone.
Element of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be doing so for the incorrect reason; as a means to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to talk about was not yet clear in those days; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have allow you to see inside a course in miracles. Don't want it troubling the mind, won't you let it be?” This confused me as I really could not consider anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere having its residents'peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
You will find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can't consider them right now.
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